Fighting the Fight

I am so thankful that today is over. It couldn't have been more taxing. Everyone at the bank seemed to have something on their mind they didn't want to share. I too have my feelings which I can not describe; but that is why I write, so that I may try. My entire life has been lived in the shadows of my friends. I don't know what I like. I know what I like to do with my friends. I enjoy spending time with Courtney; Todd's ex-wife. I know she doesn't want to ever speak to me again for not telling her about Todd... that's another story. Todd and I have grown up together and I never knew about his secret. Susan, Mark, and I were very close. I didn't tell her that he lost all their money in gambling it away. Now she doesn't speak to me either. I think I may have actually loved her. But I'll never know. I've often wondered what would have happened if Trish and I had stayed together and not broken up. So much to think about... so little time... no room for half chance only dedication and loyality.

"Dreamcatcher" - Secret Garden
Hear my silent prayer
Heed my quiet call
When the darkess moves around you
Step into my sigh
Look inside the light
You will know that I have found you.