Well, tonight I went to Common Grounds with a friend. He and I went out for a first dinner date. We had a good time. We sat together for over 2 hours and just talked. There were a lot of people there. I tell you it was like Gay Days at Walt Disney World. Amazing! There were guys who I could have walked on water for. If you could have seen them, you would have to had to asked for a towel. You would have drooled all over yourself. There were a couple of guys that you could have opened a beer bottle with their ass it was so tight.
On another note I am finding myself and being happy with my thoughts. Although I've never really "had sex sex" with a guy, I have an appreciation and understanding of what it might be like. I've done enough with a guy I'm more comfortable being around them; I suppose because I know what will make a man happy. I wish I could form a constant thought to begin some kind of process of putting my life together. But instead I still find myself seeking acceptance from my close friends. I thrive on what my friends think so much that I haven't really had a chance to find out who I am. In seeing my friends, I see things about my life I would like to change or make better. It's been so long I'm not sure who I am anymore. But I am finding myself. I am working on making me someone I can be proud of. I want me to be someone who I can appreciate when I look into the mirror. Seeing yourself for who you are is something special. Finding yourself and making you happy is what everything should be about. Don't stress over what you did yesterday. Focus on what you can fix in the present or the future. It's been a long road for me, but I think I'm in my final straight stretch. Then again, maybe not.