Fitting In

Sometimes I feel as though I no longer fit in. Life is full of so many choices you can’t possibly be happy all the time. I once was happy being part of the fraternity, being part of a group of guys that loved and cared for one another. But now I find myself questioning that love and support. My feelings transcend about the chapter, the individuals more than anyone or thing I’ve ever known. I love my fraternity. I support the guys with their decisions, their ideas. The most interesting thing about the chapter is I can’t find happiness with a group of guys that can not understand me. These feelings stem further than only within the chapter. They also include the house. I care because I can’t afford to buy groceries for the 3 of us. The bills are piling up, I’ve paid my share of the bills every month. I can’t afford to help them pay anything but what I am responsible. If I had the money, I would pay everyone’s bills off, and help them start over fresh.