Almost....There.... but No

Today I almost said something to my step-mother about my “situation”. But I didn’t. I think there comes a time in every man’s life who is dealing with this situation can find support from one place. And that is from your mother. Mothers always seem to know everything. They are supportive and understanding when you need them the most. Often times I find myself wondering if my parents have a clue about who I really am. I lay in bed thinking of the many different ways I can break the news to my parents about me. Pondering over every thought and idea I find no easy way. I’m sure there will be a time in my life when it will be easiest for me. One of my friends asked me “why do you have to tell them anyway” and I simply replied “because I want them to know” and yet that’s not why. I think everything big that has happened in my life I have wanted to talk to my parents about it or to at least know of the situations I deal with. However in this case, I think I shall wait for the right time if there will ever be one. I know I have changed a lot over the past months. Knowing these changes have come more responsibility for myself. Working to provide for myself has not come easy. I have to find peace within myself and solitude for my situation. But being alone isn’t that bad. I would have enough time to think things through for me while not having to worry how I am affecting the people around me. I will be happy again some day. I shall find the truth within this broken heart and body. One day I will find someone special for me to love, share those special moments, and they love me for who I am and everything I have accomplished. It may be tomorrow, and it might be a year from tomorrow. I won’t push but will work hard and be dedicated for my sake.