Have you ever stopped to wonder what it would be life is your friends or family didn't get sick and die? Have you ever experienced utter bliss? Can you find happiness and love in your friendships? I find myself asking many questions lately. I had a friend die in a car accident almost 2 weeks ago. My good friend Trish told me about her grandfather who is dying of cancer. I lost my grandmother to cancer almost a year ago. I haven't gotten over it yet. She was an inspiration to me and still is. She has meant the world to me. I'm not sure if I'll truly get over her being gone. I know it will take time. My friends and family are what complete me. Helping them find happiness within themselves have always made me happy. I wish I could find happiness now. Everything is so crazy right now, I can't believe that school has been out for almost 2 weeks. It's crazy. I hope tomorrow is a better day. I have support from my friends. I hope I have support from my family. If I do not have my family and friends, I don't have anything. I will find happiness within myself in due time I need to be there for my friends right now. I pray I understand why bad things happen to good people. I just don't understand sometimes.