Tonight I went to a friends house for 8 hours. We had a wonderful evening. We ate dinner, played darts, cards, and talked about so many different things. I would have loved to have stayed longer but it was time for me to go. I didn't want to over stay my welcome. Tonight I realized how happy my friend was and how happy i could be if I would just give myself a chance for a relationship. But instead I wait for myself to be happy with things I want to change about myself. Nevertheless, I will find happiness some day.