I told Paula, my real mom

I told my mom tonight that I'm gay. SHE TOTALLY FREAKED OUT. She also told me I would be gay "over her dead body". She continued to tell me she was going to get me help as soon as possible to be able to get over this, like it was a cold or something. I have to admit I was expecting this from my parents. Now that I know how she reacted to it, I can't tell my dad PERIOD. I wish I could talk about this more right now, but I can't.