What is Happiness?

Laying in my bed, watching lightening from afar, I hear nothing but crickets cherping, endless cherping.  I hear the voice of chance knocking at my door, asking to open yet another chapter in my life.  Is it a mistake?  Is it reality?  I do not know.  I stand alone wondering, constantly considering the endless thoughts that go through my head.  I often wonder what is to become of me.  Will I be someone who makes a difference in the world?  Will I do what's right for the good of man kind?  Will I become someone I can be proud of in the future?  Endless questions, not many answers.  I continue to grow in experience, but choose to delay my feelings toward my gay lifestyle in hopes it might fade away.  True happiness is in the eye of the beholder.  Sadly I've only known happiness for a short while but crave to make not only my life but everyones life around here better than is currently is.  I have also realized I can't help anyone that won't help themselves.  Enchanting thoughts of no worrying, smiles on every face, everything beautiful in itself.  Some day some where in the world, everything will be better.  Actually not here on earth for it is a waiting place until the Lord takes us home.  At some point things will change, people will be scared but there is nothing to fear, for God is always watching.  Someone who can not forgive others God will not forgive.  Be caring to your brother.  Give as you can but remember who Blessed you with everything you have.  Remember to laugh at yourself.  It builds character.  Always return things you borrow and remember to keep communication open. Don't sell yourself short because you can't handle things.  True to learn to be understanding.  It's amazing how well things can come about when you give a little heart.  Sparkling waters,  endless rose fields, snow capped mountains, beautiful smiles on ever face.  Happiness filling the air, laughter to fill the soul; these are some of my favorite things.  Don't be afraid to be honest with yourself.  It only depresses you.  Your true friends will love you no matter what.  Say what's on your heart, but be kind using kind words and generous thoughts.