Yet Another Post

So this weekend I've not done much but lounge around, playing with my dogs, remembering memories about various things in life. I still think about Susan. I miss her very much. I can remember when she would get excited about something she would give out a big smile and her eyes would light up. I'm sure Mark is having the time of his life; fighting fires, rescuing people and such. I am an Alumni of the fraternity now. Because of the war, I am unable to complete my last semester to graduate; the government needs the money. I have had my fair share of schooling I guess and need to focus on actually living and not watching everyone else live theres. I am hoping to travel at least some point in my life. Here I am almost 28 and still haven't done much with my life. I guess I thought I would have accomplished SOMETHING in my life. I gues I have to some degree. I mean I have found out who I am and what makes me happy. I have realized that I can be a great host for Diversity Weekends. Many people have faith in me that I can do whatever I set my mind to... I am babbling. I want true love and to be happy with someone. I want my family to love me for whatever my decisions in life may be. I know after I tell my family that I am gay, I will never be able to see my brother, his wife, their two children, my sister, her husband, and their four children ever again. They will never know me as someone who is part of the family. They will know me as the brother and uncle who was the outcast.