Sometimes I just want to AHHHHHH

So I was supposed to go to Indianapolis to see Ben over spring break but instead he got sent to Boston for work and I had to stay here. I changed all my plans to go see everyone to be able to do this. It's not his fault. These things happen. I'm just more upset about being at home alone... again than anything else. I want someone to love so much. Sometimes I wonder what life would be like if I were straight... I might as well get ready to live a single life. At least I have my 2 dogs that love me.